Catching Up…

I know, I know, I’ve been gone for a while… what can I say, life is just nuts… a fun nuts, but nuts… so here is a little update and some pictures…

May is a fabulous month in our house, it is the beginning of “spring” which means, I get to clean every inch of our house… yes I actually love doing it, so I have been cleaning, re-arranging and re-cleaning – so once everything is done and pretty – I promise I will post pictures. I have moved tons of stuff around and cleaned and I tell ya, it almost feels like a brand new home… I have not spent the entire month cleaning so far… I did get out and do some sister shopping… Isaac and Cede loved hanging out together in ONE stroller… I tell ya, we made Grandma Cherie proud that day…. We ate Cinnabons and shopped until our feet hurt.

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Besides cleaning, the month of May is the anniversary month for hubs and I, yep, we have been married 5 years on the 22nd. Man, time sure does go by fast… We are planning a little vacation, just the two of us, over the weekend and we could not be more excited. We are counting down the days – 11 days from today to be exact the vacation will being…

Mother’s Day could not have been more perfect. We went to see Grandpa Marty and Grandma Cheryl for dinner on Saturday, we lit the fire pit and had smores… we played on the swings in the back yard, Isaac got a swing for our front porch so you can count on some pictures of that coming next week. Sunday my beloved hubby cooked a fabulous breakfast, and let me sleep in until 9am… He even took Isaac to the store with him… Isaac woke me up with a kiss and a jump on the bed and we all enjoyed a tasty breakfast. Then we had lunch with Nana Starla, Papa Roy and Mama Pitta (Roy’s Mom Ruby) and mama got to take another nap. I tell ya, it was the most perfect day.

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Outside of life as a mama, work keeps me busy. You know, work long hours, play long hours right? Well, here are some of my most favorite pictures in the world…. Enjoy!

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Isaac loves to open the cabinets and “help” feed the dog. I just love his little diaper sticking out of his pants, is that not the cutest thing ever?

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Mama took Isaac swimming and he loved it – hopefully he will become a fish and just love the water – I think we are due for another trip to the pool shortly…

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Isaac watches people walk by the house all the time. He loves to look out the window, well, he loves to play with the blinds, but mama pretends he is “looking” rather than playing with the dangerous choke hazard…

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I became “that” Mama…

Well, on Saturday, I became “One of those moms”… You know the type… Isaac and I were playing at the little park by our house, it was nice outside. We were both looking a little bed headish. I had 3 day old hair, he had on a onesie and some ratty shorts. We were having a good time; he was playing with rocks, dirt and grass. He kept the dog completely entertained and we were enjoying the weather.

There was another little boy at the same park. He however, was dressed in a collared shirt, a light green sweater vest and kaki shorts. Oh, did I mention he had shoes and socks on, yeah, my kid had neither… The nicely dressed boy was playing with his toy trucks on the clean blue steel bench. His mama came over and our conversation went like this…

Her “Are you with him?” Pointing to my precious one

Me “Yes, he is my son.”

Her “You know he has been playing with rocks right?”

Me “Yep”

Her “Are you worried he might get hurt?”

Me “Nope”

Her “You know he has put some in his mouth…”

Me “I know, but they are not small enough for him to choke.”

Then the saddest thing happened. My precious one came over with a hand full of rocks and a mouth full of grass, he stood in front of the nicely dressed boy and reached out his hand, inviting him to take a rock and come play. The nicely dressed boy, just turned around and walked away from him. His mama proceeded to offer him the sticky hand gel that disinfects as you rub it all over… and then, they shortly left.

My precious one, paid no mind to the dismissal and went back to playing with the dog, his pile of rocks and eating grass. In the mean time, I am sure I am now known as “that mom” who let her kid eat grass, put rocks in his mouth and could not properly dress him for an outing to the neighboring park. Yep, I proudly became “one of those mamas”…

PS: Needless to say, my son is alright. He was not harmed by the rocks or dirt that he played with or the grass that he ate, his cheeks got some sun, I did find grass in his dirty diapers that afternoon, but I figured the extra fiber was good for him, but other than that, he is perfectly fine.

Nothing else left to try…

Well… tonight was a little crazy in our house. Daddy was not feeling well, Mama was having a few health issues of her own and poor little Isaac was just cranky. Nothing worked, food was not what he wanted, a story was something he was not interested in, toys could not keep him happy and finally, when mama asked him what he needed… he went straight over to the stairs, pointed up and started to climb. Once he successfully completed the stairs, he walked over to his crib, and again, he pointed up.

So, Mama changed his diaper, put him in his PJs, gave him some crib approved toys and let him be. Well… that did the trick, it has been a little over 1.5 hours now, and he is still playing all by himself, not a peep out of him. It appears that someone just needed some alone time…

Funny how we don’t always have to be on the run? Even a toddler needs down time… Time to just be, without the TV, radio or detailed form of entertainment. A simple book, a few stuff animals and two blankets make fabulous alone time toys. A while ago I learned to be comfortable alone, and yet, not loney… tonight, I think my precious first born has learned a lesson that took me 25 years… Praises Be.

Goal… enjoy the peace and quite ALONE once in a while…

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Well… let’s just say he did not love it…

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I did manage to get some great pictures! He is such a doll – I cannot believe how big he is getting.

2080 hours and lots of tears…

A year ago today I returned to work from my maternity leave. A year ago I had a tiny little baby, just a little over 2 months old… A year ago today I cried so hard my eyes hurt. A year ago today I was so excited you would have thought it was the first day of kindergarten for me. I had new pens, new shoes, a new frame to sit on my desk and hold a picture of my precious one and of course I totally had on a new outfit. I remember that day as if it was yesterday. I remember what it felt like to drop him off for the very first time. I remember emailing with my mother in law all day, just to make sure he was not giving her a hard time, because you know, if I need to come right home, I will… I remember what it felt like to see the clock say 5:00pm and know it was time to go kiss my baby. I kissed him and held him as if I had not seen him for weeks. My poor husband must have thought I had gone crazy. But I spent that night loving on my baby, I ate dinner with him in my arms, I nurses him as we watched TV, we fell asleep together and I cried again when I had to put him in his crib for the night because my heart just could not bare to let him go for another few hours. I remember getting up so excited the next morning, ready to nurse him, kiss him all over and just hold him for a while before having to get ready for the day.

So, I have officially been a full time, working out of the home Mama for a year. Yep, I have spent over 2080 hours over the past 52 weeks away from my baby. I have been blessed with a mother in law who loves him and cares for him. I have been blessed with a new friend, a godly friend who loves on my baby two days a week so Nana can have a break and man; it feels like time has just flown by without warning of how fast it travels. My little fella is walking, starting to talk and giving his Mama real kisses. One thing remains, 5:00pm is my favorite part of the day, dinner as a family, a relaxing evening, kisses and baths before bed, cuddling as we read a story and spending time praying over him, that is my favorite part of the day.

Jesus – you are good. You are good, so good. Thank you for a good year, I praise you for the blessings you have given me, the job you have created for me and the family life you have blessed me with. Some nights were short, some days were long, but regardless, you were there. I could not have made it thru the ups and downs of this year without you. I love you more than life. Amen.

A few things for the New Year…

So, the conversations around the office pretty much center around those so called New Year’s resolutions. Or in my opinion, those “promises” to ones self no one ever keeps. But this year, I was asked about what my “resolutions” are… it won’t suprise you to know they are drastically different than those of my co-workers. But here they are…

1. Focus on what matters most… Jesus Christ, my Lord and Savior

2. Develope a deeper relationship with Him thru our daily time together. You know, I wrote about my morning routine and my very valuable pillow… but this year, I want to meet with Him in the mornings, before Isaac gets up, in my comfy chair in the office. I want to spend time with Him.

3. Love, richly love. Love on my husband, my baby, friends and family. Deeply love, love even when it hurts. Love without limits, without reservations, without judgement and without expectations. Just love.

4. I learned a lot in 2008, I never want to forget what I learned, I want to keep learning, keep understanding where I’ve been and look forward to where I am going, look forward with excitement.

5. Stop biting my nails… okay that is a funny one… because I have said that every new year for the last 10 years…

6. Seriously – Pray, pray with expectation. Pray without ceasing. Pray with understanding. Pray with wisdom. Pray with passion and pray His word.

7. Read – read the word, read over and over, research the word, read about those within the word and read over and over.

8. Serve and do it with a cheerful heart. I know I am working where I am doing His good. I am doing what He has called me to do, even when I don’t want to do it. But yet, I want to strive to serve willingly and cheerfully. When I drop off Isaac in the morning, we kiss goodbye and he waves as I drive away, I want to do what He asks me to do, regardless of how it feels.

9. Forgive – Forgive passionately – Forgive willingly and Forgive unconditionally. As I said above, I have learned a lot in 2008 and part of what I learn is the power of forgiveness. Forgiving others and myself. Myself is the hardest part. But I want to forgive me passionately, willingly and unconditionally, I fall short every day, and I am often harder on myself than anyone… I want to see myself as He sees me…

10. Take more pictures, laugh often and do it all with passion…

That is my top 10 wish list. resolution list, goals or whatever you want to call it for 2009. Regardless it boils down to one thing… Jesus… and only Jesus… Enjoy the day and the New Year! Make memories and laugh often. Good night.

Sick Baby = Hurting Mama

So the little one is sick. He has a bad ear infection. Mama’s heart hurts and I am struggling with going to bed, because if I go to bed, I have to get up and go to work. Nothing makes my heart hurt worse, he is hurting, or just wants to cuddle and I must leave. Sometimes doing what we are called to do, is the hardest.

Lord, give me strength. Give me peace and give me a clean heart, not one that is bitter, rather, one that wants to serve you. Give me you, just give me you… I just need you, your touch, your strength and your presence. Just give me Jesus… I love you, I will go, as hard as it is, I will go tomorrow and serve you.